Lawrence's Story

Having never felt like he could be himself in a life of crime, addiction and gangsters Lawrence found his real identity when he encountered Jesus

Having never felt like he could be himself in a life of crime, addiction and gangsters Lawrence found his real identity when he encountered Jesus

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My life took me to the gates of hell
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really before I became a Christian.
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Hi, my name's Lawrence, and this is my story.
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My life before I became a Christian was just
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racked by drug addiction for
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about four decades.
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I never believed I would amount to anything.
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I left school as soon as I could because
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I was always gettin' into trouble in school.
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I was caught up in addiction and
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I was really people pleasing and trying
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to be something that I wasn't.
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I was never myself in that world because
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I always had that fear that if
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I'd been myself, they would eat me alive.
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I was mixing with people that you would probably
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call gangsters,
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but really when I got to know them,
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that was a revelation to me, because they
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were really just the same as me,
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frightened little boys, you know what I mean?
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I came to this church rather for the wrong reasons.
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I just, I was sellin' drugs at the time
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and two of my customers, strangely they were coming about
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here from time to time, and I went to the service,
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and although it wasn't like
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a light bulb moment, it wasn't like
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a thunder bolt or anything like that.
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Just for moments, it would remind me of
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childhood, and how good life was then.
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Life was much easier then, and then I just started,
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it kinda initiated an interest in me and then
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I just started getting more and more into it.
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Life is so, so much easier
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and less complicated with Christ.
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He's just relaxed me,
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he's made me so much more chilled out.
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He's really turned me back to what I was before.
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You know, they use the term 'born again'
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and it doesn't mean literally born again,
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as what it's explained to us in the Bible,
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but it really almost feels like I went back to
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how I was created as a child,
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and I'm gentle, try to be kind.
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He's just changed me in so many ways.
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Others have certainly noticed a change in me.
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It's almost, it's a supernatural change.
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My social worker who was brought up in
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a Church of Scotland family, and she actually said,
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"I never thought I'd be dealing with you for long because
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I really thought you were ready for the grave."
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The Bible kinda challenges to be bold and all that
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when we talk about Christ, but I feel it really easy
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because it's people that come to me and ask me,
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and that gives me the opportunity to share
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what Christ has done in my life.
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People find it really hard in these circles,
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to talk about Jesus 'cause I think back to
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what I was like then, and when you're living in
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the darkness, the light's quite frightening, you know.
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To know that I'm forgiven, and I'm loved,
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I can look at anybody in the eye now.
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I don't need to be uncomfortable in life because
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I know how I'm living, and God knows how I'm living,
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and that's been such a powerful
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change in my life, just incredible.