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I didn't believe a loving God
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could allow such difficult
things to happen in the world
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and that was really my
challenge, if there's a God,
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why does this happen and so I was
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really one of God's biggest critics.
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My name's Lee and this is my story.
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Because of the void that I had in my life,
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I became a real people pleaser,
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in the sense of seeing others happy and by
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being the person that makes them happy.
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I had a really weird spiritual encounter
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when I was in Year 10.
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For about two weeks, I would be crying
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and crying, I wouldn't even know why
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and I could feel this presence
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but I couldn't tell you what it was,
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I couldn't, all I knew is that
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it made me ask deep questions.
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Questions like, what
is the meaning of life,
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why is it that I exist?
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I was asking this to all of my friends
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and I remember, I would
just start crying to my mum
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and I'll be like, "Mum, why
is it that we exist, why?"
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So me and a group of
friends, we went to a party
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and one of my close friends, she got cold,
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so naturally I gave her
my jacket. The next day,
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me and the lads, we met up and
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we were bantering and then
it just started raining.
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Everyone else had a jacket apart from me,
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so then I said "oh, my friend, she goes
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to a church around the corner."
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so then I ask my friends,
"is it okay if we
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go down to the church and get my jacket."
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So as we go to the church, she says,
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"oh, do you guys want to come in,
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we're having food after."
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So then I go in and I encountered God.
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That for me was the beginning
of my transformation.
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I got saved a few months before
my mum had a heart attack,
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and so everything was just going so well
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and I was so happy and
then, to almost get that
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what could have been a
devastating blow to my life
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and losing my mum, but
God really used that.
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I believe that God led
me to go straight to
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my pastor's church at that time
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and they really took
me in and they prayed.
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Then the next morning, we met again
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and we prayed and so that really helped me
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turn to God and it really
helped me see that,
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I had him to lean on in the
hardest time of my life.
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Because I wouldn't have
been able to do it,
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I literally broke down.
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The difference that Jesus has
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made in my life is unspeakable.
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He's changed my perspective,
he's given me a purpose,
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before I was just living
life on a whim like,
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but I never really had a real purpose
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and I never really felt like
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I had a plan for my life either.
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I didn't know which direction I was going,
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but he gave me that, he gave me a purpose,
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he gave me a plan, he gave me a hope.
